God of Heaven Come Down

i don't know what's wrong with me.

everyday i try to make good, to deny the evil within me, but everyday, i crash and fall. every day i try to make different and every day is the same. nothing i do has any effect on anything.

the evil is growing stronger with every fall. i can feel its pull on my heart, soul, and mind. it has crept into every crevice of my being. it's in every corner of my mind and it's eating me inside out. there's no telling if i'll ever make it out with my sanity or my life.

i pray for God to come and liberate my soul of this evil inside me. i pray for Him to forgive me of my sinful ways. i repent of my old life and wish to start anew.

i pray this now:

please God, if You're there, help me be rid of this evil that now plagues every part of my being. please forgive me for sinning against You. let me start over God. let me be a light unto Your name and not a Sunday Christian. help me to end this cycle of sinning and repentance. help me to live a new life free of this and let me be devoted to only You. please Lord. help me. amen.